I feel hopeless

There are a million thoughts in my head but I'm not able to put them all on paper. First and foremost I feel discouraged and hopeless. I feel like this journey I'm on hasn't even taken off yet and I feel stuck in a loop where I'm stuck in the same spot. "Have patience" is what they tell me but I've been slacking off as far as perfecting my craft and hoping to still advance? I must be out of my mind. I need to perfect my craft and invest countless of hours to make up as much time as I can that I wasted in the previous years. I'm 20 years old and I haven't gotten anywhere or even close to getting in the entertainment industry. I keep telling myself I haven't done absolutely anything but then I remember small gigs I've done and the fact that I sing 24/7 and annoy my family to death. I mean that must count as practice... right? Well 5 years ago I projected myself touring by now and I'm a few light years away from accomplishing that! What am I going to tell my future kids when they ask me what I did when I was 20? "Oh I was dreaming on my couch hoping all my dreams came true" I mean common! I need some sleep.. College has literally made me go crazy